WOW its has been SOOOOOOOOO long since ive even thought of writing in here. But im bored so im gunna do it... lets update....SCHOOL is going pretty well, actually like it and who wouldve guessed that math is my best subject (see september entries). But yea theres is now snow on the ground and its been 1 year and...almost 2 months for me and amanda and i cannot wait for the snow to be gone even though it has been very very good to me. K BYE Singin songs to slit your wrists

IM Not happy right now....
sorry....i had to write that down....



SOmetimes..i cant stand myself...and it plays with me....ANd i hate myself and my life in that instant...

I really have to learn to settle down, and not live day by day...but live minute by minute...my mood changes so often it gets annoying...i annoy myself....i cant stand myself sometimes....god, i just sit here and think about what im thinking about...and what im worried and what i want to do and i drive myself crazy....i dono what to do...im fed up with being sad mad annoyed..i just want to be happy...all of the time...and theres only one way i kno for sure....for sure i kno this.....

I HATE SCHOOL










ARE YOU ASHAMED TO SAY WHAT YOU WANT TO, TELL ME YOU WANT TO....

WEll after seeing Adam Lazzaras ass and being in mrs. dominos class for 4 days i kno that i can survive anything...
I cannot wait...until this weekend....And I THINK MBR is playin at showplace theatre.....and my other half and i may go.....except shes buyin.....HA
im rick james...

WEll i rreally don kno what to write right now...im just going to write down mindless babble....
i looooooooooooooove you~i really really do....

SO sunday amanda came with me to the mall and i was still so depressed...but after a while bein with her..its like...how could i be sad...she brings out the best in me all of the time...she really helped me and now im ok because of her....thank you so much...i love you....


SO my first day at school was ok...it turns out mr. foss is a pretty good teacher...i like how he teaches...the only bad part of the day was math...god i hate that class....
overall it went ok...




 








But you really need to listen to me, because  im telling you the truth....i mean this...IM OK!!

im so depressed and i don really kno why...its been a while and ive just been caught up in things.  ill be changed forever. ill never tell my secret.  but it really changed me.  i wont tell anyone what it is.  So please stop asking, youre not helping me..no one can ever help me. im the only one that can ever help myself and i finally see that....im going to stop depending on people to encourage me and help me...im fine on my own and ill live.....ill kiss all of it goodbye...and never ever wish it back....














                        i am burning the letters of days gone by....

god i am so bored right now...so im sittin here not listenin to music cause i don have my headphones and my rents are home so i cant turn it up...I cannot stand this town. Or for that matter this state.  Even florida is better then this and the whole state is almost gone because of a hurricane.
BUt i guess this is the way to make time go slower and thats what i want i guess:/.  But theres nuthing to do....im gunna quite complainin and wastin your time...catch ya...









Youll have plenty of time to live in a van down by the river.........................................................when your living in a van down by the river!

So today im prob doin nuthing.  This week i may go fishing~finally.  And just to spend sum time with my dad and considering we don get along too well this should be fun. But as for today im just gunna take a shower and sit around. I want to waste away the still living days of the summer as slow as i can.  And i guess the only way to do that is to sit around and do nuthing. Should be fun:/














 

   THIS GLASS HOUSE IS BURNING DOWN, YOU LIGHT THE MATCH~ILL STICK AROUND