IM Not happy right now....
sorry....i had to write that down....



SOmetimes..i cant stand myself...and it plays with me....ANd i hate myself and my life in that instant...

I really have to learn to settle down, and not live day by day...but live minute by minute...my mood changes so often it gets annoying...i annoy myself....i cant stand myself sometimes....god, i just sit here and think about what im thinking about...and what im worried and what i want to do and i drive myself crazy....i dono what to do...im fed up with being sad mad annoyed..i just want to be happy...all of the time...and theres only one way i kno for sure....for sure i kno this.....

I HATE SCHOOL










ARE YOU ASHAMED TO SAY WHAT YOU WANT TO, TELL ME YOU WANT TO....

WEll after seeing Adam Lazzaras ass and being in mrs. dominos class for 4 days i kno that i can survive anything...
I cannot wait...until this weekend....And I THINK MBR is playin at showplace theatre.....and my other half and i may go.....except shes buyin.....HA
im rick james...

WEll i rreally don kno what to write right now...im just going to write down mindless babble....
i looooooooooooooove you~i really really do....

SO sunday amanda came with me to the mall and i was still so depressed...but after a while bein with her..its like...how could i be sad...she brings out the best in me all of the time...she really helped me and now im ok because of her....thank you so much...i love you....


SO my first day at school was ok...it turns out mr. foss is a pretty good teacher...i like how he teaches...the only bad part of the day was math...god i hate that class....
overall it went ok...




 








But you really need to listen to me, because  im telling you the truth....i mean this...IM OK!!

im so depressed and i don really kno why...its been a while and ive just been caught up in things.  ill be changed forever. ill never tell my secret.  but it really changed me.  i wont tell anyone what it is.  So please stop asking, youre not helping me..no one can ever help me. im the only one that can ever help myself and i finally see that....im going to stop depending on people to encourage me and help me...im fine on my own and ill live.....ill kiss all of it goodbye...and never ever wish it back....














                        i am burning the letters of days gone by....

god i am so bored right now...so im sittin here not listenin to music cause i don have my headphones and my rents are home so i cant turn it up...I cannot stand this town. Or for that matter this state.  Even florida is better then this and the whole state is almost gone because of a hurricane.
BUt i guess this is the way to make time go slower and thats what i want i guess:/.  But theres nuthing to do....im gunna quite complainin and wastin your time...catch ya...









Youll have plenty of time to live in a van down by the river.........................................................when your living in a van down by the river!

So today im prob doin nuthing.  This week i may go fishing~finally.  And just to spend sum time with my dad and considering we don get along too well this should be fun. But as for today im just gunna take a shower and sit around. I want to waste away the still living days of the summer as slow as i can.  And i guess the only way to do that is to sit around and do nuthing. Should be fun:/














 

   THIS GLASS HOUSE IS BURNING DOWN, YOU LIGHT THE MATCH~ILL STICK AROUND

SO its been a couple since ive written anything down. But ive come to the conclusion that im getting my haircut before school.  It was a good run but it needs to be cut:/ SO today i went to the waterfront with amanda and it was fun even though we were kinda mad at each other half of the time. BUt it was really fun and nice to see the sunset, i recomend it to evryone.  So this would be our last FULL week before we go back, and we have a full week when we go back too:(.  Well ive never done too much sucking up to a teacher before but this year it will be done. I need all i can get.







                   




            BUT THESE GRASS STAINS ON MY KNEES THEY WONT MEAN A THING